You know why?
No more political bullshit.
No more of Donald Trump's tweets.
No more heartbreak that I have to see this shit every day and know that he's President. Do I still have heartbreak? Yes. Of course I do. But I don't need to see it displayed in the form of literally hundreds of facebook posts or reposts every damn day. Do I see it in the news that I follow? Yes. But that's easier to turn off.
No more horrifying videos or pictures of animal abuse that some of my friends like to post because they're shocking. Newsflash and possibly unpopular opinion: Those videos and pictures just make me mad at you, friends who post them. They don't make me want to act. I know that's what you're hoping will happen, but it doesn't work, at least not for me. Heartbreak no longer makes me take out my wallet - knowing that my dollar will make a difference does, even if it's a small one.
No more stories of parents who are abusive to their children or this 12-year-old that died by suicide the other day because they were bullied.
I never realize how much of a toll that stuff takes on my mental health until I walk away from it, even for a few days. I really, truly can't take it anymore.
There was also a time where I deactivated for about six months, and I was asking my husband a lot about what was going on in facebook land.
This time, I don't really care. To be honest, I kind of already know because it's the same shit over and over and over again.
I'm sure I'm feeling this way now, but it may change and I may want to reactivate in the future, but I think that it might be permanent this time. It feels different. I feel so starkly better that it is almost shocking.
Also, I called this morning and canceled my cable service. We've been paying for cable and don't even have the box set up - we solely watch netflix, hulu, and HBO. We can get ALLLLLL of those things on Apple TV. There was -literally- no reason that we were paying as much as we were, so I finally chatted with a very helpful representative (on XFinity! WHO KNEW THEY EXISTED?!) and got it taken care of. They now leech $50 less per month from us. (Now I just need to remember to return the box, which is happening this morning.)
Being less engaged overall has been helpful for me as of late. I have REALLY needed a break from people-ing. I also think I'm going to be taking a vacation sometime this summer (especially since I'm about to max out my earned time and I lose it if I don't use it) because it's looking like some pretty significant plans that I had are going to fall through - nobody's fault, it's just what's happening - and I need to do something with that time.
PHEW. This is how I know I'm an introvert, friends who don't believe me when I tell you that I am one.
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